Days of abstinence: 37
Days until surgery: 47
Weight: 162.4 pounds
We post-bowled last night because the Royals
game on Wednesday took precedence over bowling league. The nice thing about post-bowling is that it
goes a lot fast than league bowling, so we were home before 9:00 last
night. I went straight to bed when we
got home and had a good, solid night’s sleep.
I didn’t want to get out of bed this morning because it was cold in the
house, but that’s the only reason I didn’t want to get up. I woke up slightly before the alarm went off
and felt well rested and ready to go.
The other bit of good news (it feels like good
news to me, anyway) is that the deadline for the project that I have been
working on 24/7 for the last couple of months got pushed out by a week or
two. This is good news to me because 99%
of the work I needed to do is complete and at this point the ball is in other
people’s courts. That means I don’t have
to work this weekend and, for the most part, my really ridiculous schedule of
10-14 hour days, 7 days a week, is done.
I need one more early morning (this morning) to finish a financial model
I am working on for a meeting today, but after that, I think reasonable 10 hour
days, 6 day weeks, will get me through the rest of this crunch time. I should be able to manage that, cook all the
food I need to cook (that is the only chore I’ve been able to maintain through
all this), exercise regularly (I haven’t had time to exercise all week – and that
is bad), and get enough sleep. I am
going to enjoy having a schedule that resembles normalcy. Oh yeah, and there are a maximum of 4
ballgames left, with 2 potential ballgames being at home on Tuesday and
Wednesday next week. I am hoping that we
don’t need a game 6 or a game 7, but if we do come home to play ball, I feel
confident that we will have had at least one win in New York and our Royals
and Johnny Cueto will finish them off on Tuesday. I’m putting my money on the assumption that
Johnny will come out ready to roll for game 6, just like he did for game
2. That will be the last game of the
season for him and after that he is on the market. If he clinches the World Series for the
Royals after the huge clinching game 5 of the ALDS and the huge game 2 of the
World Series, I think he can name his price.
If he implodes in game 6 like he did in Toronto, he will still get a
decent contract, but I think it will impact his marketability. I’m no expert, but from what I’ve noticed I
believe that when Johnny really wants it, he gets it. He’ll want that win in game 6 as much or more
than anyone else in Kansas City. Despite
all that, I’m still hoping a game 6 is unnecessary.
My food program is as solid as solid can
be. It feels as if there is very little to
talk about when it comes to food these days.
I’m On Program and have no desire to eat or drink anything off
program. The only thing I kind of want
sometimes is another cup of coffee when I get to work. Honestly, I think that is just a security
blanket kind of thing. There is
something reassuring about having a hot cup of coffee on my desk. But I am avoiding coffee at work, altogether,
and once the urge passes I am fine.
This morning I found myself wondering what foods
and drinks I have given up forever, in addition to sugar and sugar
substitutes. I don’t know the answer to
that question. I know that I am staying
100% On Program until February 1st (I just picked that date, but it
makes sense, that gives me 6 weeks of recovery after surgery with what I
consider to be an optimal diet), but after February 1st will I want
to eat or drink off program foods? I
have no idea. Sugar, sugar substitutes,
and sweet treats have been eliminated from my diet forever. But what about bread, wine, legumes, oatmeal,
quinoa, rice and other such foods that are currently eliminated from my diet
that are not sugar? This is the quandary: I feel great right now, 37 days into the Whole30,
in spite of a ridiculous work load and not getting enough sleep or
exercise. I attribute that to my
diet. Why would I want to feel less good
than I feel right now? This is the
second time that I have done the Whole30.
It made me feel just as good last time I did it. Then I slowly let non-program foods slip into
my diet. The shift was subtle, but the
decline in my wellbeing became noticeable.
Why then, would I change anything?
I like the food I’m eating, I’m healthy, I’m happy, and I can maintain
my weight easily, eating like this. It’s
as if this program causes my body to be able to self-regulate food consumption
at an optimum level. It really is
amazing. Why on earth would I change a
thing? I have no idea. But, this sounds so stupid but there is a “but,”
it is easy to imagine being at a restaurant for a special occasion and eating a
piece of bread or drinking a glass of wine.
I have no idea why I would want to do that, but I can imagine myself
wanting to do that. This is the sort of
thing I need to think about. I do know
this, I am not addicted to bread or wine, I am addicted to sugar. Therefore I must abstain from sugar for life
but I don’t feel like a must abstain from other off program foods for
life. I will want to get this figured
out before February 1st.
I’ve got to run.
Have a beautiful day.
What about the tiny amounts of sugar in things like bread?
ReplyDeleteI a m not going to eat anything that I know has sugar in it, forever. There is a possibility, when I eat food prepared by others, that I may end up inadvertently eating something that has a little sugar in it. I don't think that will derail me, but for the most part, I will eat only food I prepare. With regard to bread, I think it is very likely that I will include it in the items I avoid forever. The only exception might be things like crab cakes or meatloaf, that might have a little bread in them as a binding agent. But it is very likely that I have eaten my last piece of bread. Sometimes I think to myself, If I had known that was my last fill-in-the-blank when I was eating it, I would have enjoyed it more!
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